Why?

(Originally posted by me on another blog on July 3, 2008)
Why?

Current mood:blah

(I posted this annonymously on craigslist a few days ago... just thought I'd put it here, too.)

Why is my specialty impossible relationships?
Why is the timing never right?
Why is the feeling never mutual?
Why can't I get up enough courage to speak up and say something?
Why am I so shy?
What's there to really lose?
Why do I still let the past get to me at times?
Why are there so many deceitful people in this world?
What do they expect to gain from causing so much pain?
Why do I feel like I have so much to offer someone - yet, I'm alone?
Why must my children grow up only having one parent in their lives?
Why, if everyone says I'm such a "great guy", why am I single?

I'm tired......of so much.

I hate being alone.
I hate feeling unwanted.
I hate feeling unloved.
I hate feeling like I'm never good enough.
I hate never being good enough.
I hate this game life plays.......

"...makes ya think you're everything they ever said you were."