Saturday, April 2, 2011

Changing my life, one step at a time.

Okay so... I've struggled with being overweight my entire life.
I've tried out for The Biggest Loser twice.
At times over the years, I've tried to eat a little better but gave up quickly each time and just kinda thought, "Oh well, guess I'm stuck like this."

A year ago, I tried to get out and start being more active by walking for at least 15 to 20 minutes every other day (which is a good, slow start for me and a lot of other people) but I soon developed an issue with my sciatic nerve shooting intense pain down my left leg.
SO, needless to say, the walking was short-lived and I had a new problem.
After a few months, I found a wonderful "Maximized Living" chiropractor that helped me start to turn things around. Dr. Ben Follas is a great guy who honestly cares about people and helping them in all aspects of their lives. His focus is to get your neck and spine as close to perfect as possible, the way God designed it to be, to alleviate pain and to also un-pinch nerves that cause other serious problems/illnesses/diseases.

Dr. Ben is located in Hendersonville, TN and this is his website: http://www.livingwellchiro.net

After a few months, my pain was gone, and I started to eat healthier as well. This is a big focal point for Dr. Ben. To sort of re-learn how to eat but eat wisely and stop putting horrible sugars and other toxins into our bodies.
I've come a long way from where I started, but I still have a long way to go... As my adjustments with Dr. Ben continued.. I developed a new kind of pain also caused by my sciatic nerve but the pain is now located in my left foot. I have faith that this pain will also eventually be gone as well, I just need to keep pressing on down this life-changing road.

I'm going to list out the key things I have changed here on this blog, as they have helped me to lose a total of 33 pounds so far -- which would be more if I was able to get out and walk every day or every other day, but I'm still not quite there due to this current pain I'm experiencing in my left foot. (I will get there eventually, though! Mark my words!!!)

First off, and this is THE most important change to make:
DRINK WATER. Nothing else.
No seriously, did you really get that?
NOTHING ELSE. Ever. Never ever ever ever.
If you can't or won't do this, then you don't really care about making a real change in your life and you will be stuck.

I personally HATE water. Always have. There's just no taste to it. It's plain. It has always begged for additives to make it tasty and more enjoyable.
But if you really want to lose weight and be healthier and have a better life, you'll do it.
You'll make this change. If I can do it, anybody can!
I now drink 8 water bottles a day at 16.9 ounces each that I filter in a PUR water pitcher at home that i keep in my fridge. (Amazon sells them for less than $15: http://www.amazon.com/PUR-CR-6000-2-Stage-Oval-Shaped-Water-Filtration/dp/B000QRDMY8/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1301755748&sr=8-1-spell)
I started out having to drink 9 water bottles a day.
Do the math: Divide how much you weigh by 2. Your answer is the number of ounces of water your body needs per day.

So, now that we've gotten THE most important step covered, let me list all the key points:
1. Drink half your body weight in ounces of water every day.
2. Do NOT eat sugar. Do NOT use substitutes. STOP eating sugar, period! Substitutes are bad for your body and sugar is what breeds cancer. (See: http://www.mnwelldir.org/docs/nutrition/sugar.htm)
3. Stay away from grains. Not just bread, but cereals and protein bars and anything with grains. Whole grains = good for you? Nope, it's a myth. (See: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/why-grains-are-unhealthy/)
4. Eat good fats. Coconut milk (from a can, only!), avocados, etc. Also choose fish or chicken whenever possible. Avoid beef unless it's beef you get from a local farmer's market. Go with turkey whenever possible. And just stop fast-food altogether. If that seems impossible, do some research online and look at the nutrition information on items from fast-food restaurants. There are some decent alternatives out there such as Taco Bell's Fresco items, Wendy's salads and grilled chicken sandwiches, Subway's sandwiches (although you should definitely limit these! All that bread is NOT good for you! Jared lies! lol)
5. Don't go crazy, but allow yourself one meal a week to eat as you please. Simply minimize your portions and don't over-eat. Myself and my kids as well -- we love pizza. We usually get that every other week or so. I used to stuff my face with pizza constantly, even when I was already full. Listen to your body... if it tells you to stop -- then STOP!

Along with drinking water, another key for me has been having breakfast smoothies I make at home every morning. These will give you TONS of good stuff your body needs and they will also keep you full for 4 to 5 hours.

Breakfast Smoothie
1 cup of frozen berries
1/3 can of coconut milk
1/2 to 3/4 cup of almond milk (unsweetened)
1 scoop of whey protein
10 to 12 almonds
5 to 7 fresh spinach leaves

I have personally used chocolate flavored whey protein powder along with a cup of frozen blueberries and have finished it off at 6:45am and not been hungry until after 12 Noon.
(Chocolate + blueberries may sound strange, but it really is THE best combination in my opinion. Another good option is strawberry protein powder + blueberries... Mmmmmm......)
It's a great personal little blender that lets you take it and go! It even fits in my cup-holder in my car! It's awesome and only costs about $16.

Having one of these smoothies *every day* -- with different variations on the flavors of the protein powder and berries used -- has been a vital part of my new life and new eating habits.
(I even put in half an avocado now because I don't care for them and this is the best way for me to eat them. I love love LOVE these breakfast smoothies!)

Now, most importantly, don't call whatever plan of action you take a "diet". Most people associate this with something temporary: "I'm going to start my diet next week."
Don't start something you are thinking of as being temporary and give hope to it being a quick fix.
START A NEW LIFE!!!
Make serious changes and realize you need to change *all* of your eating habits as well as any other habits that may be detrimental to your health. (Smoking, laying around watch TV all the time, etc.)
Put the cigarettes down.
Put the remote down.
Get up. Get out.
LIVE.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

My Prison

I’m fine in my prison

Just leave me here

I have visitors that come

And keep me near

They understand my pain

They lift me up and comfort me

People that I love

And friends that will never leave

Only my loved ones are allowed in here

No one else can interfere

These walls I have built

They keep us all safe

Away from the storms

And out of harm’s way

I’ve done my best

To let it all fade

But a lot of memories

Are just here to stay

Along with regret

And a lifetime of pain

I wish that it all

Could be flushed down the drain

But because of it all

I have two shining stars in my life

They are the ones that

Truly ease all the strife

Unconditional love

They freely give

Because of them

I can really live

No, it’s not perfect here

The walls are tattered and torn

But here in my prison

I feel safe and warm

It’s here that I reside

Without any fear

I’m fine in my prison

Just leave me here


3/31/11

Thursday, January 28, 2010

This blog is the answer to why I listen to the kind of music I do...

(Originally posted by me on another blog on January 28, 2010)

This blog is the answer to why I listen to the kind of music I do...

Current mood:nauseated

These emotions just could not escape thru any other music...

Check out the video for this song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BAiDKOqfvc

"The Bleeding" by Five Finger Death Punch

[V1:]
I remember when all the games began
Remember every little lie and every last goodbye
Promises you broke, words you choked on
and I never walked away,
it's still a mystery to me

[Pre-Chorus:]
Well I'm so empty
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me
Well you're so unclean
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me

[Chorus:]
The lying, the bleeding, the screaming
Was tearing me apart
The hatred (deceiving), the beatings; it's over

[V2:]
Paint the mirrors black to forget you
I still picture your face and the way you used to taste
Roses in a glass, dead and wilted
To you this all was nothing
Everything to you is nothing

[Pre-Chorus:]
Well you're so filthy
I'm better off without you and you're better off without me
Well I'm so ugly
You're better off without me and I'm better off ALONE

[Chorus:]
The lying, the bleeding, the screaming
Was tearing me apart
The hatred, the beatings (disaster); it's over

As wicked as you are, you're beautiful to me
You're the darkest burning star, you're my perfect disease

[Chorus:]
The lying, the bleeding, the screaming
Was tearing me apart
The hatred, the beatings; it's over
Disaster

It's over now...

Friday, January 1, 2010

That's right, BITCHES!

(Originally posted by me on another blog on January 1, 2010)

That's right, BITCHES!

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION IS TO NOT TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Over a year of putting up with this bitch's dog next door (lol!)

Barking like mad at odd hours of the day and night -- RIGHT outside of our side of this place we live.

I made the comment to some coworkers recently that the next time it woke me up or kept me from going to sleep that I was going next door and banging down the door until *I* woke *HER* up and I just did it and it felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO damn liberating and good to see *HER* come to the door all irritable because *I* just woke *HER* up!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SCREW calling the cops and animal control -- they have done absolutely NOTHING to help me each and every time I've called them in the past year.

HELL to the YEAH - 2010 is gonna be a different year MFers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, time to get back to sleep. HA!

>=D

Monday, December 21, 2009

FedEx is lost.

I've been tracking a package for my son for one of his Christmas presents - mind you, it's a pretty awesome one, too.. and one that I absolutely MUST have before Christmas Day - and I check online tonight to find this update:


"Unable to locate address - Street name"


Wow. Seriously, FedEx???? SERIOUSLY?!?!?!? You couldn't even find the FUCKING STREET?!?!?!? I don't really know what to say to that. If a pimple-faced teenager driving for Domino's or Pizza Hut can find where I live, SURELY FEDEX CAN!!!!!!! W.T.F.?!?!?


I am beyond pissed off right now. I worked my entire day around being home as much as possible because it said it was scheduled for delivery today.... AND, on my way back from picking up my kids at around 5:40 - I passed a damn FEDEX truck!!!! AAAAAAAARGH! I bet it was on there....


So, now I just got off the phone with a customer service rep for FedEx and I had to give her...

...wait for it...

yep - I had to give her DIRECTIONS.

...

FedEx.

FedEx needed directions to find my damn house.

Un-fucking-believeable.

......

...and I thought the USPS was bad.


You dumbasses better actually find my house tomorrow, FedEx...

...and I swear, I will never again allow anything to be shipped to me via FedEx.


FedEx - "The World On Time" -- Oh, really???


Quick trivia question FedEx!


Which planet is Earth?

A. The second one from the sun

B. The third one from the sun

C. The fourth one from the sun

D. I don't know - Can you give me directions?

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Joy... a very welcomed feeling.

So... it's been a while.

I haven't posted anything here in quite some time.... but today is just one of those that cannot go by without taking some time to put my thoughts into text............

Parent-Teacher conferences were today.

Wow.

No, that doesn't quite sum it up.

WOW!!!!!!!!

There, that's better.

I have two of THE most amazing kids in the whole ENTIRE world.

Okay, sure - most parents say that. BUT... it's usually not true. Haha! =P

First up -- my son's teacher. Mrs. Mooneyhan. Right off the bat, she thanks me for raising such a kind, caring, remarkable & responsible son. On top of that, she goes on to tell me that he's always striving to do his best in all subjects in class. She lets the kids take a spelling pre-test on Thursday and if they make more than 100, (there's bonus words each week - total possible is 105), they don't have to take the test on Friday. She tells me that even if he makes 104, he always wants to retake it on Friday because he knows he can get the 105.
She kept complimenting me on my parenting and if I tried to shrug off taking credit, she kept bringing it back and saying I should just accept it. I really think that I just have two absolutely awesome kids and I just can't take all the credit for them being who they are...
But anyway, hearing all these things about how well he's doing and how much she just LOVES having him in class -- she even said she wishes she could have a classroom full of Derics!!! -- I couldn't help it.... I started to tear up. I was just BEAMING and BURSTING with pride. It's incredible to hear a teacher speak so highly of your child.............

(I can't even type this without feeling it all well up again...)

Second up -- my daughter's teacher. Mrs. Dowell. (Who's been a replacement teacher since day 1 of school because Rachel's teacher was put on bedrest -- her first pregnancy at age 38, I think).
Okay, there's really only so much I can take...lol... She proceeds to tell me that she has never seen a student as bright and as eager as my daughter. She used the word "NEVER"!!! She taught for 35 years and retired and was called in by the principal as a favor because of the other teacher being put on bedrest.) She tells me that the students are required to read 9 books by this point and take tests on them on the computer. My daughter has read EIGHTEEN! AND three of them were near 5TH grade level! She's in 3rd grade! =o !
She goes on to tell me she's started preparing paperwork to have my daughter tested for being gifted.
/shocked
I had NO idea that I could ever feel so insanely proud....... it's just incredible.
I'm literally speechless at this point, just taking all this in. Tears welling up in my eyes from being so happy hearing all these words and feeling such pride for my baby girl...
Then she starts talking about how she wishes she could always choose Rachel as the "line leader" or if she needs something from or taken to the office, she wishes she could always ask Rachel to do it rather than mixing it up with other kids - giving them turns and whatnot - because she knows she can always count on her.

I swear, I'm still taking all this in... I haven't even talked to my kids tonight about all this yet because I know I'm just this big softy who is SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOO very proud of them both and if I started thinking about talking with their teachers today and telling them about it, I'm gonna get all teary-eyed again......

My kids are my whole world. They've all I've got and I'm really all they have. I'm not a fan of the way life has turned out in that regard but I have always tried to do my best in spite of life's circumstances to be the best parent I can be for them.

It's just.. it really is an certain type of joy inside that I'm feeling that I can't really explain right now. To see your children excel like this.... I might not be happy with MY life, but I am absolutely thrilled thinking about what their futures could hold in store for them..........

/joy

Monday, April 20, 2009

Never Enough

(Originally posted by me on another blog on April 20, 2009)

Never Enough

Current mood:nostalgic

"Never Enough" by Mudvayne


My legs are weary but I still walk
My hands are sore and broken but I still clutch
My heart is jaded but I still love
My cup is empty but I still pour

All I ever wanted to be, all I ever needed to be
Was whatever you wanted me to...
But you took that from me - yeah

I was never enough for you
I should have known, I should've known
I was never enough for you
Don't waste my time, don't waste my...

I lost the feeling but I still touch
I stopped believing but I still trust
All I ever wanted to be, all I ever needed to be
Was whatever you wanted me to...
But you took that from me - yeah

I was never enough for you
I should have known, I should've known
I was never enough for you
Don't waste my time

All these questions, asking why?
I'll just close my eyes - my eyes
All these people, asking why?
I'll just wave goodbye - goodbye

Time - pushin' forward
I'm sick and tired
Need a little shelter
Drag the glass across my eyes
Gut me open, gut me wide
Bleed me for the winner
Just tear it away

I was... never enough for you
I should have known, I should've known
I was never enough for you
Don't waste my time

I was... never enough for you
Just wasted time
Don't waste mine